The first of many

So I finally am jumping head first into a blog. I'm hoping this will be a good way to keep up to date on our family, also a way to share my feelings etc. :-) Today was a happy/sad day as my little Carter man graduated preschool. I can't believe how fast time has gone. Seems like just yesterday I was rocking him in the hospital room swaddled in a tiny blanket. I couldn't be prouder of him and so excited as God reveals his plans for his future and we get to watch him grow in Christ. I pray I can be a steadfast mommy, leading him to be the godly man he is destined to be. With his amazing daddy showing him the way, I have no doubt that he has great things in store for him.

Only two more days for Kamryn. Tomorrow she will be going on a field trip with daddy, both are so excited. :-) Maverick and I get to spend the day at home, with our friends Emma and Kyle coming to play in the morning. Busy day, but hoping to continue getting the house in order.

These last few days have been so eye-opening. Never in my life has God's plan seemed so sure for me. I'm embracing my job of bringing life and joy to my home, and pray I can stay patient and faithful to this commitment. I feel the pull of adoption everyday, and know everything is in God's time. So until the day comes when we can look into adopting, I will focus on loving every second of this life I have now.

Although things may have been rocky with Jeremy and I, I'm am so happy that we have finally gotten in a place where our love is stronger than ever. This man is not only my best friend, but the love of my life. We are committed to raising our children with patience and love and lead them to the cross daily. Though not always easy, through a consistent prayer life, we are able to accomplish this.

I will readily admit, I have been on a slippery path the last few months. Unsure of my lifes purpose and bored with where it was heading. God has truly revealed to me a purpose that I know without a doubt is meant for me. To fully embrace being a mommy and spreading that love to others is just as God-pleasing as any high paying job, if not more so. This world is falling apart with hatred and pain, but in my home, I pray I can create an atmosphere of love and peace. Where God's presence is felt and no judgement is cast. Like Psalms 51:12 states Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit to sustain me. I pray I put aside the lie the world wants me to believe that I should put myself first. That God, my husband, my children and the needs of others always come first. The devils biggest goal is to steal my joy and with God's help, I will not let that happen. And looking at my three kiddos darling faces, as you can see, it helps make it much easier. ;-)